Attempting conflict in real life is not a good idea at all, regardless of the size of conflict. It requires confrontation which hits the fragile human relationship to its weakest core. Worse still, you have not live your life, or even half of your life (in my case, predicting that i can live till 60?) till the end to know who is your comrade and who is your nemesis. Being honest a.k.a making your life dramatic is just pointless. It traps you in predicament that can hardly be dealt with. Sometimes, you are the one to be blamed for the anarchy and disaster as a result of spoiling and screwing up your own built friends web. Yes, this blog entry is solely me talking to myself, not at all trying to be offensive to anyone who is reading. I have just come to a point that I realize honesty is the worst policy especially when it becomes the weapon for a confrontation that stems a conflict. There is no right and wrong in a relationship which is why the grey region begins to trigger my confession and later brings to a confrontation that leads me to a state of absolute regret. If you are reading this because you assumed that you are right and about to confess, please, hold, yourself, back, before the going gets tougher.
跟别人起冲突的大前提是觉得自己是对的，别人是错的，喜欢自己，不喜欢别人。在我突然间觉醒，理解这个道理的时候我害怕了，我冲凉的时候在朦胧的镜子里（特爱热水澡）看着自己很久，什么时候开始我改变了，不是我想象中的从懦弱的人变成了一个敢于表达内心的人，而是从一个懂得理解别人聆听别人的人不知不觉中变成了一个自我膨胀到不行的人。
想对未来的自己说：
你会觉得自己是合理，正确的情况下才去和别人吵，这是因为你设下了一个标准，标准以上，合理，该吵；标准以下，不合理，好吧让步。这个标准很多时候因为是自己设下的，所以对自己是有利的。你会因为你自己的心情而去调动这个标准，这个时候你眼里已经没有别人，你只是忙着觉得自己委屈，不开心，生气。这个时候的你不理智，你的标准不标准。坏了的秤再也不能量体重，就算量出来你有多轻，它都没有意义。
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